Nikki Sinclair - BITS Forum member and Nelly Furtado fan R.I.P.
At 9:30am a message was left on the forum from Nikki’s sister Joanne which was a shock to us all.
Nikki
My beloved sister died last night! She took an overdose of antidepressants and died at three twenty this morning!
Nikki was a valued member to this forum. If anybody would like to leave a message to be read at funeral or such like please send me private message.
Thanks
At 3:35pm another message was posted from Joanne
My name is Joanne I am 22!! I am Nikki’s elder sister. She has been very ill and depressed for a long while. She had had few rough days and after row with partner decided to end her life. No fault of her lovely partner. She was just very ill.
She took loads of anti depressants with a Smirnoff Ice! She text myself Tal and her Dad. We found her in flat under her duvet. She said leave her alone and would not go with the paramedics. We convinced her to go. She was very dozy in the ambulance. When in hospital she started to fit, went into cardiac arrest.
They tried two and half hours to revive her but electronic part of her heart dead. As was her blood pressure. She was brain dead too. We saw her she look pretty and peaceful. I would appreciate respect of her. Not judgement on they way she died. She was mentally ill. My email is ********@hotmail.com (Please comment below) any genuine friend please feel free to contact me. Anybody else post on here be respectful and bear in mind I have lost my baby sister.
Thanks
Nikki was much loved on the BITS forum she joined on 7th November 2002 and had clocked up a massive 16,697 posts. It is a huge loss to the site and to the Nelly Furtado fan community. May she rest in peace.
Nikki - 27th March 1985 ~ 21st March 2006
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Very sad news. I’m very sorry to hear this. I’m sure she will leave an unreplaceable void in this forum.
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I loved Nikki…she is one person that I will never forget. I never got to say goodbye to her. But now she will never have to be sad again. God took her and now she is in his hands. Nikki, you will always be a part of my heart. Always.
My condolences to her grieving family. =-(
May her soul rest in peace.
Nikki….i still can’t believe you are gone. I wish i had the chance to says goodbye, and tell you what an amazing friend you were, for the few months i knew you. I loved you and so did we all, you will be greatly missed around here. Burn in the spotlight will never be the same without you. I will cherish the moments we talked and shared laughs, those were the good old days. Now you are with God and you’re happy. You will always be in my mind and in my heart.
PS: i never got to tell you
i won on my roll up the rim today, you always wanted me to let u know my stats on them
I am in a state of shock and offer my sincere condolences to all those close to nikki.
R.I.P. Nikki
Jack
I never got to thank you for the kind words in my reputation. And I never got to tell you that you never have to say thank you for me backing you up in a statement, I wish there were going to be more statements I could back up…You were my red-headed fiery-tempered sister from a different mister, I miss the talks we used to have, and now I’m going to regret being so busy because I’ll just be missing you. You’re putting everyone through alot of pain, and I hope it was worth it for you to be where you need to be.
My heart goes out to the family and especially Joanne, thanks for taking the time to let us know.
~17,000 posts later you are a dedicated fan, not a pushover by any means, and truly an intelligent person that should still be here. May your mind rest now.
-Shannon
R.I.P Nikki
I will miss you dearly and never forget you
Rest In Peace, Nikki.
You are a person that meant so much to everyone on this forum, always with something to share and say to all.
I will really miss reading your posts and receiving your msgs.
My thoughts go out to Joanne and the rest of Nikki’s family, I hope that you guys are able to get thru this tough time.
You will be dearly missed.
RIP.
xox
I hadn’t known you for very long, but you made a lasting impression on me. You were always one of the coolest and most respected people on BITS, and I admired you for that. R.I.P.
I don’t know what we’re supposed to do without you, Nikkay.
I just hope you’re at peace now. In the end that’s all that should matter to us.
xox
I can’t believe this… I don’t even know what I am feeling right now. I’m so sorry that you had been hurting so badly.
I loved sharing music with you and thank you for all the kind words over the years.
My heart goes out to the family.
RIP Nikki.
Nikki, my beautiful Cosmic Twin, my Post Whore, my Survey Buddy, my darling Ginga, my tackle buddy, my in-the-closet honey babey, my everything to-do with happiness. I am at complete loss, as is everybody else. You gave me so much in this life of the three years we knew each other. It was our three year anniversary yesterday of being friends. I looked to you as a saviour, a best friend for life, a reliable source of comfort and laughs and a major inspiration for my writing.
Thank you so much for being an amazing friend, thank you for talking to me, for writing the most beautiful pieces of writing that I will alawys treasure and thank you for just being you. I will, like everybody else, never EVER forget you. You have given us all so much, individually and as a group. You will never ever be replaced. You were one of the couple of people who really really understand me in this life. Thank you so much for all the deep and meaningfuls, emoticoned hugs and kisses. My night skies belong to you now forever darling - I.O.U One Galaxy.
I hope you are at peace, and I can’t wait for the day that we finally meet so we can dance along the endless skies of stars.
I love you forever and ever Nikki.
Love always your butterfly,
Leesa.
xo
I am shocked. I just responded to one of your posts yesterday. This hasn’t even sunk in yet, you will definitely be missed. I will miss reading your posts everyday in the forum. You will be remembered here at BITS. Hope that you are at a peaceful place now.
RIP.
Wendell.
from what i knew about Nikki she was a different person, a smart woman… unfortunately life doesn’t always go the way we want and Nikki chose her way.
Hope’s she’s in a better place now… she will be missed.
My thoughts and heart goes out to the family and friends.
Inês
I miss you, Nikki.
I returned to BITS because I was depressed myself and needed help. You took me under your wing and made me realize that there were more important things in life than wallowing in my own misery. Your posts and our msn conversations always made me laugh and I always felt extra cool and extra special when you were on my side in an argument.
You are lovely and beautiful. I hope that you’ve managed to escape your pain, and I hope that you’ll come visit me in my dreams one day.
I love you.
I didn’t personally know Nikki very well but I was very aware of her presence on BITS and I always enjoyed reading her quirky and often hilarious posts. She was never afraid of voicing her opinion which I admired. Ill always remember her as the forum chick with the wicked sense of humour. Rest In Peace Nikki.
My condolences for her family and especially her sister who was thoughtful enough to let her online pals know of her passing.
Ben
I will greatly miss Nikki - she was original and honest. And bloody funny most of the time!
I knew about her emotional problems and in fact rang her from Australia to chat and give some advice a year or so ago.
I am in shock - RIP Nikki.
this is such sad news to hear, my heart goes out to all friends and family
The last year and a half I have not posted here on a regular basis, but I often checked. If there was one person from the forum that I would have to recall from when I was still very active here, it was probably Nikki. Then one day at 1 in the morning you check bits.com Nikki is dead, all I can do is give my condolences to her family. And keep Nikki and her family in my prayers.
God bless, Willem
Nikki its so sad you never came to my town again..and that i wont see you in the future…ive never seen something who posted so much as you amd it will be very hard to find a replacement
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I’m tired and I
I want to go to bed
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don’t try to wake me in the morning
‘Cause I will be gone
Don’t feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go
Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don’t want to wake up
On my own anymore
Don’t feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go
There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Bye bye (The Smiths “Asleep”)
I know how much you adored this song, Nikki. God, how I wish that things hadn’t ended this way. :’(
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May God be with you and may you rest in peace, you were one of a kind and a true friend. You’ve been on my mind ever since I heard the news, and I will always continue to be your “partner in crime” Nikki. lots of love. I will never forget you!….Josh
This makes me so sad, my sincere condolences to all those close to nikki. RIP
Nikki, although I’d known you since I’d joined this site, I didn’t really properly get to know til a few months ago. You were such a fab, fab person, our conversations always used to have me laughing.
You’re a BITS legend, always humouring us, never afraid to speak your mind, you were the ‘Cheeky Chicha’ of the forum.
I’m so sad we’ll never be able to chat anymore. I’d only just started to get to know you really, but in those few months I really felt like we were great friends.
I hope you’re at rest now, and you’re somewhere happy and funky where all the people there wear pink legwarmers and there’s a constant supply of NikNaks and Nesquik
I’ll never ever forget you NikkiLooLaa
I’m really sorry to hear about this. I admired her for always saying what you thought.
I wish her family and friends much strength in these hard days.
JW
(this is Automatic TLC)
Horrible and days before her birthday. I’m sorry for the loss. Wow..rest in peace.
I am very sorry for your loss. I always liked the spirit and humour of Nikki’s messages. As a life-long sufferer of depression, I can unfortunately understand some of the pain she must have been feeling. It can get so bad that you truly believe that ending things is an attractive option.
I hope your memories of Nikki will help you through this sad occasion.
Chuck
Sleep
Sleep Tonight
And Let Your Dreams Be Realised
U2-MLK
Rest In Peace
Nikki
The Forum will never be the same again.
“..I’ll melt away in the summer air”
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This news shock me very hard.I wish to dress my sorrow in some words but i’m unable to do it right now.
Rest in Peace Nikki.I hope that you soul is finaly find that she always wanted
My sincere condolences and strength to her family and close friends in these tough times.
BITS will indeed never be the same without you, never.
Rest In Peace, Nikki.
Nikki, although i only got to know you a few months ago, i came to know you were such an amazing person. You always gave me great advise, and you were so understanding. You always made me laugh, and it was rewarding being friends with you. I’ll miss having my bunny buddy, and i’ll miss talking to you on msn, and reading your posts everyday. I wish could have had more time to talk to you, BITS will never be the same again. You were a special person, and you inspired me. I miss you so much, and i will NEVER forgett you!
R.I.P. Nikki
naomi XxxxxX
i will never forgeut u
Nikki was an awesome , fabulous, amazing girl ,with a humour that i liked, i never met her in lifetime, but online yess, so fabulous girl , that made my days here on Bits , i always that i enter to Bits, i always knew that her would be here, with her topics, test , all her amazing things and comments that she always did … she was how a part of my daily life , an old schooler memember that i never will forget ,
Nikki will be always in my mind and my heart , she was so special , and nice friend …. her pics, her comments to me, her chats …. never will be the same without her .
my condolences to her family. One of my thongs was to meet her someday , cuz to me she was a powerfull woman ….
I have known (in a sense) Nikki for several years, and this is truly shocking to me. I talked to her several times about when she comes to america, coming to California to visit. I cant beleive this happened.
I dont want to say too much, but thanks for everything Nikki and I’ll see you one day.
Oh my God!!
I can’t believe it, I’m very sad, I’m sorry a lot.
Rest in peace Nikki, we don’t forget never.
OMG. I am so sorry for Nikki’s illness. I hope she rests in peace in heaven. I’m sure that she will have a good time in heaven, just like she had a good time on BITS! I love you, and everyone will miss you a whole lot!
Nikki and I had heated debates constantly on Bits i just cant believe that she has passed, My condolences to the entire Sinclair Family, she will truly be missed here. I just cant believe that shes gone we chatted a couple of months ago. I Hope the Family stays strong through this rough time.
Byron Jason
I send you and your family my deepest condolences. I am a person who has and continues to battle with depression and all I can say is that I know family and friends have been the people I most value and I am thankful for them. I am sure your beloved sister must have felt that way about you.
XOXO and lots of support.
I’m absolutely gutted. I can’t even comprehend this.
Joanne, I had a text from you. Thank you so much for letting us know I can’t imagine how hard this was/is for you. I’m gutted, I’ve been meaning to get in touch. I have just come back from a night out but since I found out I have not stopped moving, working, etc etc so I can not think about this. My stomach just hurts, feel like I’ve been permanently winded.
Nikki was an amazing girl, a great great girl with so much energy, I’m so so sad for her I can’t explain.
I’ve been away from BITS abot a year since an incredibly close friend died and she has often said I can talk to her and I have sometimes. I can not deal with this I’m gutted beyond belief.
I don’t know what to say or do. My thoughts are totally with Joanne and her family. Joanne, I did not want to text back as I thought you may be bombarded with messages and must be so difficult but I spoke to you on msn once and Nikki talked of you too.
I can only send you my love forom afar and wish so so much I had got in touch with her when I thought of it instead of “getting round to it”.
I feel incredibly lost and no idea what else to say
I didn’t really know her, since for a while I stopped posting and just lurked.. so I just knew her from reading her posts.
I’m really sorry to hear about this and I wish her family all the best.
Oh… I am very sorry for her death. I’m not a member from this forum, but I’m a Nelly Furtado fan. I’m so sorry, Joanne.
I know she was your little sister and you really love her, but you must think that she’s in a best place and she’s thankful of the love you gave to her.
Well, I have to go, and may your little sister rest in peace…
Kisses, bye, take care
I haven’t been posting on the boards for ages to find out off another bits member was sad to hear, feel so shocked at this moment.
Nikki what can i say she made you laugh and had great energy about her really fanastic girl, very inspirational person.
Nikki gave this place so much lifeblood! love you girl always remember you in my heart and soul.
My condolences go out to her sister joanne and the whole sinclair family.
I know i’ll see again nikki rest in peace.
My sincere condolences to Nikki’s family!
Rest in peace Nikki!
Nikki sweetheart
I wish you had known how very precious a gift you were to me as a daughter, and to everyone who knew you. I keep waiting for you to pop up on Messenger. I wish I could have taken away your pain, I’m sorry if I let you down. There will always be a gaping hole in life now that you’re not in it. It’s so very sad that we all believed in you, you just couldn’t quite believe in yourself. I’m so very proud of you. You got through so much. I’ll always miss you darling, my baby girl……….when we meet again, I’ll tell you all the things I wish I could tell you now………….love forever……..Mum xxxxx
On behalf of Chris Smith Management, Nelly Furtado’s Management company, and all of our artists, we send our deepest sympathy to the Sinclair family.
I would like to pass on my sincerest condolences to the family of Nikki Sinclair. I know that she was a devoted fan and I truly appreciate all the love and support she gave me throughout the years. Her loyalty will, truly, be missed.
With love and respect,
Nelly
I would like to pass on my sincere condolences to the family of Nikki Sinclair. I know that she was a devoted fan and I appreciate all the love and support she gave me throughout the years. Nikki’s loyalty will truly be missed.
With love and respect,
Nelly
Rest in peace, Nikki!
We will miss you!
Nico
Nikki, what can I say? You were my best friend, and I was your Womby-Woo’s. We debated, we joked, we laughed, and we were always there for each other.
Remember last summer when we were flirting like hell? Ha, I almost got to go out with you I swear. Remember our texts, and our phone calls at 5am, just to hear the other say something in their accent. I’d call you and make you say “fooking coont”, and you’d phone me and make me say “arse”.
They were good times. And I’d give the world to have them back.
I can’t believe the last thing I said to you was “Dya know where I can get a picture of the House of Commons? I need it for Government and Politics work”.
If I had know that would be the last conversation we’d have, I would have kept you on MSN for hours, just to keep you here longer. Sadly, I don’t think either of us knew what was coming.
You know I don’t believe in Heaven. You know I don’t believe in Christianity. But I hope for your sake, that you were right, and that now you’re up there laughing at me for all the silly things I’ve done recently. I hope the emo jokes I tell myself aren’t going unmissed, and that you’re hearing every single one and shouting back “I’m not EMO!”, when as we all know, you quite clearly were (Yes, the glasses DO prove it).
Have fun up there, and don’t forget to keep their grammar, and sarcasm, in check.
I hope you’re right and that I’ll see you soon.
Forever your Womby-Woo’s,
Steph
(And just to satisfy your big emo heart,
Nikki has been apart of this forum since whoa nelly. I started here around that time too, which is 2002. Funny how things change and all. I didn’t come on much. Now with the new album coming out i started coming on here more and now look what happens. I don’t see why nikki had to do this to herself, maybe i don’t know and i can’t comprehend the kind of pain that she felt. I know we all feel pain everyday but for some it’s more hard to bare. I hope that god has nikki and i hope that she’s not hurting anymore.
Jevarie
It’s sad but I hope now she feel good …
R.I.P
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My deepest condolences to the family and friends of Nikki. It has been a great pleasure to have known you and I will miss you deeply. Our love for you will never stop.
You’ve brought a smile to everyone you’ve met. To quote the great women herself,
“All the rain on my window, every drop is every tear I have shed. Every day you shone that ray of light in my life.”
That is what you do best to the people you meet. You’ve brighten up this world.
having read the comments left with regards to this tragic loss i only saw fitting that i left my own. having known nikki personally the loss is all the harder for me to cope with. i knew nikki for a good few years, having spent my senior years at school as a very close friend of hers. of all the friends i have met over the years she has had a profound impact on my life. whenever i felt down, she was there to lift my spirits, whenever i needed someone to talk to she was always there to listen, day or night (literally!). the one thing i shall always remember about nikki, more than anything else is that whenever we had these late night discussions she would never call me “her friend”, but “her soulmate”, i feel extremely privelaged and incredibly lucky to have had nikki as a friend and as a part of my life, if only for such a short time. my condolences go out to her sister joanne and her partner damien, and to the rest of her family.
rest easy nikki, i hope you find the peace you’re looking for.
I’m a new member of this forum
and i saw this post by Joey, i’m really feel sorry for Nikki
Hope she’s now happy in the Heaven and in the GoD’s hands
Nataraj
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Hi . Been a while . Never realy saw this fourm so i never knew jo made it . Nikki and i had a great time together . Hey when i was with her some haw things were smooth calm . She was a loveing girl allways care’ing . Il never forget the time me met . It was in a supermarket in blyth Nortumberland united kingdom . It started when i let her by as i had a big load of shopping . All she had was a packet of sweets for the kids that came in her shop where she was working. Anyways on my way home she stoped me asked me for my phone number lol bless her . I had no prob with that i nice girl asking for your number dude you bite at the chance dont ya eh . Anyways half a year along the line we got engaged woo we were so happy . almost a year gon i feal some haw its my fult dont realy care what peapul say i know it was . i should of sorted our prob out then and then . but know im fool i sent her home . so she could calm down . I carnt say just haw much i miss her . eevry day in my life feals emty there is something missing . I know she is in my heart .
So nikki if your listerning . I want you to know just haw much i stil LOVE YOU . With all my heart . Ps Girl i got your engagement ring right hear in my house close to me .
Like i say she was a care’ing loveing Girl . And shes speachal to me .
Thanks For reading
Sorry about spelling im not to good at it
Damian Gilbert
Nikki’s Partner